Rolling thru January

Well, January is almost halfway over and I am still plunking along.  I am not dieting because those don't work.  I am however making better food choices and so far I am doing really well, if I do say so myself.  I have given up sodas, coffee, sugar and in general junk food.  Not to say that I will never eat them again but for now I am abstaining and to be honest I am not really missing them.  I thought the cravings might be bad but not really.  Maybe I have made it thru the rough parts and it will be smooth sailing from here on out.  I hope.  I am getting closer and closer to getting my band and I am soooo excited.  I am 4 months into my 7 months with insurance.  I have my 5th month scheduled for February and that just makes it seem so much more real.   Well, lunch is over and time to get back to work. Hasta la vista!

Welcome 2010!

Well, we survived another year.  The girls and I missed the big peach drop (again) we were completely tuckered out and went to bed about 10pm.  Oh, well, I hope that's not an indication of what the new year holds for us.  I am so ready for my surgery.  I know I harp on this all the time but man, I am READY!  I am trying to make better food choices, drink more water and less soda or coffee, take my fiber and fish oil supplements and hard as it is exercise.  I would like to say it's a four letter word but it's actually eight letters so it must be really bad. (hee hee!) I took the girls for a walk and then I came home and did a yoga video that was actually doable!  It's called Just My Size Yoga with Meagan Garcia.  I love it!  Now if I can just stay motivated with this or some sort of exercise program.  Well, that is about all to report on for now.  I'm looking forward to 2010 and all that it will bring! 

Christmas Week Begins!

Well, it is the week of  Christmas and I am so ready for a vacation.  I am going to be spending some time with the folks and a bit of time at home getting ready for the new year.  I have kept my Christmas list short and sweet this year and I haven't stressed much.  It doesn't really feel like Christmas this year...I don't know why.  But none the less it is here.  Well, if I don't post it, Merry Christmas!

Ready for the Weekend!

I am so ready for the weekend.  Alas I have to work on Friday night.  Yuck.  The extra money will come in handy but working on the weekend sucks.  I am currently working very hard to avoid fried food, sweets and increase my fruit/veggie intake.  We are having a Bday party at work tomorrow night at work so that will be a challenge.  Trying to remember my fish oil, Benefiber, drink more water.   I have not told the world about my decision to have lap band surgery but I am slowly telling people.  I still have to wait a bit for my surgery so I'm not in a huge hurry to let the world just stare at me while I'm still fat.  That's about it for now.  Eating my salad and enjoying it.  I also passed on the chocolate cake Yea me! 

I'm falling apart!

I had my sleep study on Wednesday night and by Thursday they called me to inform me that I stopped breathing 15x's an hour.  15 time and hour?!?! HOLY CRAP!  Well, that was very upsetting to me and then on Saturday I got more news!  It seems that my triglycrides are elevated and my good cholestrol isn't good enough.  Hun...I might not make it to 40!  So let's recap, this year I have gone on blood pressure medication, I have sleep apnea, my cholesterol is elevated and what else?  Oh yeah, I'm about to have a nervous breakdown!  Now, I've been overweight for a while but I've always been healthy.  Now it seems like I'm 2 steps from death!  I am on 4 different prescription medications, fish oil (blech) calcium, a multivitamin and I'm gonna have to get one of those sexy CPAP machines.  Who's jealous?  Well, if that isn't enough co-morbitities I don't know what qualifies.  They need to put a rush on my surgery, I might not make it till May 2010 at this rate!  I have a pain in my wrist but I dare not bring it up to my doctor...it might be arthiritis.  Say a prayer for me.  I need all I can get at this point.

How do we look?

I ordered pictures of the babies today for my Christmas cards.  I hope that they turn out as good as I hope.

The journey continues

Well, I went to the hospital yesterday to get some preliminary stuff out of the way.  I had my bloodwork done, went to physical therapy so I could learn how fat people should exercise and I had a sleepstudy.  I got a phone call today to inform me that I will need to come back because I stopped breathing approximately 15 times per hour.  Hmm.  I was pretty sure that I didn't snore so I was not terribly worried about the sleepstudy.  Now I find out that I'm gonna have to drive 2 hours back to Alabama (closest in network provider for lap band) and spend another night so that I can be fitted for a lovely CPAP machine.  Fabulous.  Well, while I'm not thrilled with the fact that I will have to endure sleeping in some sort of contraption around my nose/face/head.  I am thrilled to find out why I have been so tired for the last 20 years!  I'm not totally lazy there is medical explaination!!  Whoop whoop!  I wonder if I should call my ex-husband and inform him?  I tried to tell him for years that something was wrong with me and that I wasn't crazy/lazy or just a bad wife.  Oh well, I think I'll just let that dead dog lie. 

Anywho, I am 3 months into my 7 month consults with my PCP and I have completed everything else.  At first I was ready to just get on with the banding and get rolling.  As I have been working on my paperwork and learning how my life will change with the band I have learned things that I probably wouldn't have learned if I had been able to just jump right into the band.  I had an epiphany today.  I use food as a reward, I had a hard day so I deserve a blizzard, you get the idea.  Here's the epiphany part, I also feel that food can be a punishment.  Let me explain, I can't/don't control my eating therefore I have to get water to drink and not sweet tea.  I wonder if ordering water to drink, fruit instead of fries, passing on the bread basket and saying no thanks to dessert will become second nature at some point?  I want to want the fruit but I really like fries.  Why do I have to choose? Why is it that some people can have the fries and the dessert but I can't?  Aren't I special too? Maybe these will issues will become more clear over the next few months as I learn to make better food choices.  How did food get to be such an issue with me?