Monday, December 21, 2009
Christmas Week Begins!
Well, it is the week of Christmas and I am so ready for a vacation. I am going to be spending some time with the folks and a bit of time at home getting ready for the new year. I have kept my Christmas list short and sweet this year and I haven't stressed much. It doesn't really feel like Christmas this year...I don't know why. But none the less it is here. Well, if I don't post it, Merry Christmas!
Friday, December 18, 2009
Ready for the Weekend!
I am so ready for the weekend. Alas I have to work on Friday night. Yuck. The extra money will come in handy but working on the weekend sucks. I am currently working very hard to avoid fried food, sweets and increase my fruit/veggie intake. We are having a Bday party at work tomorrow night at work so that will be a challenge. Trying to remember my fish oil, Benefiber, drink more water. I have not told the world about my decision to have lap band surgery but I am slowly telling people. I still have to wait a bit for my surgery so I'm not in a huge hurry to let the world just stare at me while I'm still fat. That's about it for now. Eating my salad and enjoying it. I also passed on the chocolate cake Yea me!
Monday, December 14, 2009
I'm falling apart!
I had my sleep study on Wednesday night and by Thursday they called me to inform me that I stopped breathing 15x's an hour. 15 time and hour?!?! HOLY CRAP! Well, that was very upsetting to me and then on Saturday I got more news! It seems that my triglycrides are elevated and my good cholestrol isn't good enough. Hun...I might not make it to 40! So let's recap, this year I have gone on blood pressure medication, I have sleep apnea, my cholesterol is elevated and what else? Oh yeah, I'm about to have a nervous breakdown! Now, I've been overweight for a while but I've always been healthy. Now it seems like I'm 2 steps from death! I am on 4 different prescription medications, fish oil (blech) calcium, a multivitamin and I'm gonna have to get one of those sexy CPAP machines. Who's jealous? Well, if that isn't enough co-morbitities I don't know what qualifies. They need to put a rush on my surgery, I might not make it till May 2010 at this rate! I have a pain in my wrist but I dare not bring it up to my doctor...it might be arthiritis. Say a prayer for me. I need all I can get at this point.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
How do we look?
I ordered pictures of the babies today for my Christmas cards. I hope that they turn out as good as I hope.
The journey continues
Well, I went to the hospital yesterday to get some preliminary stuff out of the way. I had my bloodwork done, went to physical therapy so I could learn how fat people should exercise and I had a sleepstudy. I got a phone call today to inform me that I will need to come back because I stopped breathing approximately 15 times per hour. Hmm. I was pretty sure that I didn't snore so I was not terribly worried about the sleepstudy. Now I find out that I'm gonna have to drive 2 hours back to Alabama (closest in network provider for lap band) and spend another night so that I can be fitted for a lovely CPAP machine. Fabulous. Well, while I'm not thrilled with the fact that I will have to endure sleeping in some sort of contraption around my nose/face/head. I am thrilled to find out why I have been so tired for the last 20 years! I'm not totally lazy there is medical explaination!! Whoop whoop! I wonder if I should call my ex-husband and inform him? I tried to tell him for years that something was wrong with me and that I wasn't crazy/lazy or just a bad wife. Oh well, I think I'll just let that dead dog lie.
Anywho, I am 3 months into my 7 month consults with my PCP and I have completed everything else. At first I was ready to just get on with the banding and get rolling. As I have been working on my paperwork and learning how my life will change with the band I have learned things that I probably wouldn't have learned if I had been able to just jump right into the band. I had an epiphany today. I use food as a reward, I had a hard day so I deserve a blizzard, you get the idea. Here's the epiphany part, I also feel that food can be a punishment. Let me explain, I can't/don't control my eating therefore I have to get water to drink and not sweet tea. I wonder if ordering water to drink, fruit instead of fries, passing on the bread basket and saying no thanks to dessert will become second nature at some point? I want to want the fruit but I really like fries. Why do I have to choose? Why is it that some people can have the fries and the dessert but I can't? Aren't I special too? Maybe these will issues will become more clear over the next few months as I learn to make better food choices. How did food get to be such an issue with me?
Anywho, I am 3 months into my 7 month consults with my PCP and I have completed everything else. At first I was ready to just get on with the banding and get rolling. As I have been working on my paperwork and learning how my life will change with the band I have learned things that I probably wouldn't have learned if I had been able to just jump right into the band. I had an epiphany today. I use food as a reward, I had a hard day so I deserve a blizzard, you get the idea. Here's the epiphany part, I also feel that food can be a punishment. Let me explain, I can't/don't control my eating therefore I have to get water to drink and not sweet tea. I wonder if ordering water to drink, fruit instead of fries, passing on the bread basket and saying no thanks to dessert will become second nature at some point? I want to want the fruit but I really like fries. Why do I have to choose? Why is it that some people can have the fries and the dessert but I can't? Aren't I special too? Maybe these will issues will become more clear over the next few months as I learn to make better food choices. How did food get to be such an issue with me?
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