Why did I get banded?

That is the question that I have been asking myself for the past few weeks.  I have not done jack as far as what I am supposed to be doing.  I am exactly where I was in January.  It is now August 1.  What the #$!! am I doing?  Obviously not much.  It's not like I'm just eating everything in sight but I am eating all the wrong things.  I have done nothing but eat slider foods for months.  Why?  It is so much easier, I don't cook, I'm lazy, all of the above.  Now, what am I going to do to stop this self destructive phase that I constantly find myself in?  What kind of life altering changes am I willing to make?  What am I going to do to change my life?  I do not have a clue.  I am so disorganized in my personal life that it is unbelievable, my professional life is organized that you would not recognize that they belong to the same person!  How do I change?  How do I get organized in my personal life, home and eating habits?  I think I need an assistant.  Any takers?

sTilL AliVe

I am still alive. I suck at blogging.  Got a new phone, Droidx2.  I am hoping that it will help keep me more connected. :)

Well, fellow bloggers not much is going on weight loss wise.  I may 207 this morning and the next day I'm at 210.  Sigh.  Must drink more water.  Must exercise.  Have I told you lately just how much I hate to exercise? I hate the whole thing.  Getting dressed, sweating and then having to take a shower afterwards.  Yuck.    Nothing about it appeals to me and where the heck is this "high" that people talk about?  I haven't gotten any higher than the front step on my house.  It is like it never ends, I can get on the treadmill and I am certain that 20 minutes have passed and I am almost finished but alas, 7 minutes have passed and I am sick to death of the treadmill.  I don't enjoy walking or running and not actually going anywhere.  Am I the only one?  I dislike DVD's too.  My four legged babies simply do not understand what mommy is doing and why she keeps yelling at them for trying to help her.  Floor work just encourages the little darlings to race up to my face and smother me with puppy kisses.  Am I that lazy or is it something more?  Hmm....I'll have to give it some thought.  Maybe I'll think about it while I'm on the treadmill. Sure, I'll contemplate it while on the treadmill.  I'll get to back you guys and let you know what I come up with. 

I just wanted to say THANKS you guys for talking me through my little pity party/rant last week.  I have been working super hard to make good food choices.  My doc says that we should eat "meats & greens" meaning that we should eat our chunky meat first and then eat our healthy veggie.  If we are just dying then we can have a few bites of the red velvet cake with cream cheese icing.  We should be full by the time we get to the cake so a few bites won't hurt.  So far so good. The scale has moved down and it looks like I have recovered from Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years. But, like my doc said, these holidays will pop up every year and I have to have a plan.  I digress, Thanks again to everyone that posted a comment or shot me an email.  I really appreciate it.  I don't really do resolutions any more but I think I should probably blog with a bit more consistency this year.  I seem to make better choices when I do.  Hmm...accountability maybe?  Anywho, have a great day! 

Horrible Blogger

I suck at blogging.  There, it's out there.  I said it and it shows, on the scale.  How in the world did I get here?  I fell off the wagon, rode around in the dirt and finally I think I am ready to get back on the ride.  I was doing so well.  I will spare you guys the horrid details but I have restriction again, thank you God!  Now if I can just get on with the program and get the momentum back that I once had.  Somehow I ended up with all of this junk food in my house over the holidays and I swear I didn't buy it.  I had lots of guest and I suppose that is where it came from.  Why don't you just throw it out Jan?  That's a good question.  For some reason I can't just throw food away.  I feel too guilty, all those little chinese kids out there starving I guess but I just can't throw perfectly good food away no matter how bad it is for me.  So, finally I have nibbled it all away.  I go to the store today to buy more band appropriate food, thank you God!  I have a list and I am not straying from it.  Guys I really need your help, for some reason I am really struggling.  I eat and I feel full but sometimes...I just can not stop putting food in my mouth.  I don't know if I just want something to chew on or if I just like the taste or what the problem is but I just keep on shoveling the slider foods in the pie hole.  Help me, teach me oh great ones!